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Wednesday, February 18, 2009

Less important than I thought

You're not so important after all
It's been weeks since we last talked

While it hurt me deep inside
The pain intense, would not subside
Loses strength each passing day
But it never goes away

I am older today
And I cannot be repaid
For the years that I wasted with you

So I'll hold my head high
We have said our goodbyes
I'm no longer singing the blues

As the weeks pass by
I will no longer cry
And you'll find you are thinking of me

You will ask yourself why
And you'll wonder if I
Have erased you from all of my dreams

Of what you inquire
I answer that I
Have escaped the reach of your snare

You are no longer there
Not even a care
Thank God for giving me strength

There is someone out there
Who will work to repair
My heart; turn the bitter to sweet

One day if we meet 
On a far away street 
And you ask me how my life has been

I'll tell you the truth
I no longer miss you
And I'm glad that we ended up "friends"

Tuesday, February 17, 2009

Ode to Law School

Oh God, help me please
These theories are killing me
I lose myself in books of nonsense

The people who legislate act like they are stimulated
By the laws they decipher, the laws they create
And I sit here upon this chair and labor over their designs 
That fog and cloud, confuse the mind

I just don't care enough
And my time is almost up

Surrounding me daily are students who educate 
Themselves with this knowledge to make themselves rich
They dream of the toys they can buy and sell or trade 
It's nothing more than that
A money hungry pack
Of lawyers lying back

While I pass the time living in my daily dreams 
Counting days til I escape 
A victim of a chosen fate

I'm waiting to life the life I truly desire
I'm counting the seconds til I get my chance to run

Oh God, please deliver me and lead me to my destiny
I am sure it is more than what is here 
Please hurry get me out of here.  

Tuesday, February 10, 2009

The Legendary Shack Shakers Rocked in B'ham

Hadn't seen my friend, Margaret in a while, so we met up last night at the Bottletree to see The Legendary Shack Shakers and the show did not disappoint.  

It was my first time to see them, and they killed it...just the right pick me up for two unemployed lawyers on a Monday night:)


Wednesday, February 4, 2009

Sheriff LAME-O Lott in South Carolina is just blowing smoke, so to speak:)

So I just heard on the Today show that Leon Lott, a sheriff in Richland County South Carolina where Phelps allegedly was smoking marijuana, is threatening to charge Phelps with marijuana possession. HUH?

From a picture? LAME-O needs to get a life and lighten up because there's no way he can charge Phelps for anything if he didn't catch him in the act.

Who's to say Phelps isn't smoking some dank tobacco out of that water pipe?

Sunday, February 1, 2009

For You: A Poem

For You: 

He's better than you were to me
But second to your memory

Why are the ones we love the most
Always the ones that don't love us?

An unrequited lover's lust
Does not require the heart to trust

So we can still remain detatched
Avoid emotional impact

And so we live within our lies
Offering excuses no one buys

Back and forth til I give in
Indulging the delicious sin

Cerebrally, it isn't right
But I'm tired of putting up a fight

Emotions that my heart creates
They overcome and dominate

Objective thoughts logic prescribes
Lie dormant recessed in my mind

I'm void of patience; full of fire
Desiring the instant gratified

Caught up in the moment's heat
Swept away in the release

The aftertaste that's left is guilt
But my stomach is an empty pit

Once again, I change the rules
I contradict the things I do

And you lay there perplexed, confused
Trying to sort my lies from my truths

But even I can't separate
The things I feel and the things I fake.